She came in like the whispering winds. Her hair was like blazing fire but cool to the touch. The words she spoke came dripping from her lips so sweet as honey and sharp as a sword that cuts so deeply but gently as butter. I never felt one ouch of pain but only left with my mouth open wide with awe and wonder of such an divine encounter. Radiating like the Son and love oozing our of her pores following her trail.
This encounter drastically shifted my life and the way I saw my life in a split second. My mind that was addicted to constantly thinking and overthinking became subjected to the peace that resided in her presence. All logic and reason went out the window and all I could hear were the sounds of truth ringing and awakening so deep within me. I was alive. I had always been alive. But for a while I was dimmed under the shadow and fog of lies, illusions, and false conclusions. She snatched me up out of that place and into a place that was free, limitless, and dreams were the reality.
What do I really want to do with my life? I want to spend my time talking to new people, hearing their stories, writing about it, taking photos of all the majesty that we are surrounded and yet so easily distracted from being away of its simplicity of what rest looks like. I want to get financial supported to just write books, short stories, memoirs or blogs while travel every corner of the earth seeing what Jesus see in every person He died for. Working a 9 to 5pm, never was me. It was the place that I was told, taught, and believed is what 'the normal responsible adult' does. And how many people find themselves hating their lives, looking for adventure through everything else instead of living what they desire the most. Who am I? My truest self is a live to creativity and artistic expressions. Normalcy, Mundane, Mediocrity was never my life...it was the life of those who wanted to conform me to their own image instead of allowing me to explore my original design in the eyes, and heart of Papa God before the foundations of the world.
Many naysayers who do not believe would probably say well that's not reality, that's fantasy. You have to stop acting like a child and grow up and do the things that you don't want to do in order to have the things you want eventually. How many of us have wondered that? Have any of us actually questioned that? Who said that is the way to live? I didn't either for such a long time until I realized that the box that everyone have been trying to put me in to conform or fit into...doesn't fit! And it never will. I wasn't meant to be in a box that look like everyone else. The same hairstyle like Oprah or body like Beyoncé, or the voice like Whitney Houston, or the drive like Michelle Obama. Why does everyone else want us to be like everyone else instead of allow us to truly enjoy who we already are? I'm not living in the fantasy, I am living the life that I was always meant to be abundant. Abundant isn't always about financial security, or having the biggest home or having all these things, abundance is loving your life and enjoying every moment. Living without one regret but only loving the ones so important in front of you. Living your life truly happy not because of 'things' you have or because of all these 'things' that are happening in your life but truly fulfilled because you know one of the truest truths...you are loved, full of love and overflowing with love. No longer living out duty, or obligation but sheer enjoyment.
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